I always wanted to be a mom; there was no doubt about that in my mind. However, motherhood changed me in many ways. I had dreams, expectations, and plans. Yet, none of those “worked out” the way I thought they would.
I had planned on waiting until after college to have our first child. Yet, fertility fears, and surprises had us starting parenthood after only a year into our marriage.
I had NOT planned on being a stay at home mom. Yet, the minute I looked at my firstborn, I knew I could not go back to work full-time.
I had planned on being a public school teacher. Yet, God changed my heart, and I am now a homeschool teacher to three.
I had planned on 4 kids, 3 years apart. Yet, I have three beautiful blessings, not spaced at all like I had planned!
Motherhood changes us. It shapes us and it molds us. Motherhood has looked nothing like what I thought it would. It is messy, and scary, and beautiful. It is exhausting days and sleepless nights. It is unpredictable and exhilarating. It is wonderful, yet at times can still steal our joy as well.
Motherhood also changes with each child. How you mother your first child often looks so different by the time you have your last. I wish I could go back and start motherhood over. There are so many things I would do differently.
I would play more, and schedule less.
I would worry less about what the world thought of me, and more about what I looked like through my children’s eyes.
I would laugh at the spilled milk. And show how to clean it up.
I would cuddle that colicky baby, instead of wishing the tears away.
I would stop watching for the next season and embrace the one I am in.
Yes, motherhood changes us. But it’s supposed to. I believe God created motherhood to break us, to shape us, and to mold us into what He wants us to be. Each season of motherhood is different, and each one opens our eyes to a whole new world. We learn what to expect and what not to do. We learn to embrace and hold on to things, instead of just wishing them away.
We grow. We laugh. We change.
Moms, let motherhood change you. Let it mold you. Let the changes happen naturally and don’t worry about the next season. Embrace where you are in your motherhood journey because, believe me, it will move fast enough on its own.
How has motherhood changed you?
Misty Bailey is a Christian wife and homeschool mom. She resides with her family in Southern Ohio. She loves helping new homeschoolers and has a Homeschool 101 eBook for those getting started. She shares her struggles with time management, becoming unglued and finding joy in the everyday moments on her blog Joy in the Journey. You can also find her on Facebook and Pinterest.