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Living in the Shadow of Being a Birth Mother – Guest Post for Portland Moms Blog

May 17, 2015

In honor of birth mother’s day on 5/9 and Mother’s Day on 5/10, I wrote a guest post for the Portland Moms Blog, for whom I hope to be regularly contributing in the future.

I am a wife of ten years, and stay-at-home mother to three little ones under eight. From an outsider’s perspective, I appear to be just an average Christian church-going, minivan-driving, play date-attending mom. But on the inside I have a secret.

It’s not the kind of thing I can share at mom’s group or in PTA meetings. People at church and in prayer circles don’t really want to hear about it. Even most of my family either doesn’t know about it or tries to pretend it never happened.

I am a birth mother.

I stand by the choice I made as a scared, unmarried college student long ago. I believe that the life of that baby boy and my own are better than what they would have been if I hadn’t placed him for adoption.

Because of that choice, I got to hand-pick his family, sign the papers, go back to my babyless life, finish college and grow up. And he got a loving, married mom and dad and a big sister that wanted him and had the means to take care of him.

But years later, when life has moved on, I am married and have my “real” children; it has become almost socially unacceptable to talk about him. After all, he’s not my child. He is just some ghostly shadow that lurks in my past. Always there, but not really there.

I remember as he grew inside me, but I don’t get to raise him. His birth is in my medical record, but his laughter is not in my home. He has my eyes, my face, my hair, but I don’t get to look at them each day.  I am his birth mother, but not his mom….Finish reading over at the Portland Moms Blog!

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  1. Shandra says

    May 18, 2015 at 6:07 pm

    This is truly touching. SO powerful. Thank you for sharing your story.

    Reply
    • Wynter says

      May 19, 2015 at 10:43 am

      Thanks for reading, Shandra

      Reply
  2. Kelly @ Mum-bo-Jumbo says

    May 18, 2015 at 10:46 pm

    You have me captivated with this snapshot. I can’t wait to read the rest of your post at Portland Moms Blog. Incredibly brave to share your thoughts and experiences. Thanks for linking up at Turn it Up Tuesday

    Reply
    • Wynter says

      May 19, 2015 at 10:43 am

      Thanks for stopping by, Kelly!

      Reply
  3. Stacey says

    May 19, 2015 at 10:36 am

    This is so beautiful! I’m sorry that so many people can’t understand how selfless this decision was, and yet how painful as well.

    Reply
    • Wynter says

      May 19, 2015 at 10:44 am

      Thanks, Stacey. To God be all the glory!

      Reply
  4. Hazel Moon says

    May 19, 2015 at 10:16 pm

    Although it was difficult, you made a wise decision, to give your child up to a loving home rather than take the option many others have taken. Know that during the entire time of carrying the child, his birth and all you went through for the legal requirements – Jesus was there with you (unseen but there never the less) Jesus is the forgiver and you are not condemned but He sets you free from guilt and pain. May you rise up and realize you are not judged, because Jesus did not judge you, and He not only loves you, but he loves all four of your children, no matter who they call mom. Thank you for sharing with us here at Tell me a True Story. http://letmetelluastory.blogspot.com/

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    • Wynter says

      May 20, 2015 at 12:59 pm

      Thanks, Hazel, Amen!

      Reply
  5. Jerusha (@TheDisneyChef) says

    May 20, 2015 at 4:25 am

    I know how painful that must have been to share and I applaud your courage. I think that, through your actions, you gave that family (and the world) quite a gift… I understand it must hurt so much, and with the stigma in your family… Whew. I can only imagine.

    If it helps… I struggled with infertility for years, and it actually lead to the end of my first marriage. We had considered adoption and took all the initial steps, even met with a potential birth mother before finances forced us to pull out. Through the process, we agreed there was nobody in the whole world more important to us than the birth mother. She was who was making the big sacrifice in order to give us what we had been dreaming of. We thought then she was akin to royalty.

    Frankly, when I hear that’s what you did for somebody else, that’s what I feel about you too. She may be the day-to-day mother, but you’re the birth mother, as you said. There’s no taking that away from you. I hope one day you can celebrate it, as I’m sure that family does.

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    • Wynter says

      May 20, 2015 at 1:00 pm

      Thanks, Jerusha, for the kind words and for reading today.

      Reply
  6. Divorced Kat says

    May 20, 2015 at 6:01 am

    Fascinating. Thank you for being brave enough to share your story.

    Reply
    • Wynter says

      May 20, 2015 at 1:01 pm

      Thank you for stopping by to read it!

      Reply
  7. Natasha@ Anxious Toddlers says

    May 20, 2015 at 8:12 pm

    Thank you for sharing your journey with us. I am sure you are helping others out there who continue to struggle silently.

    Reply
    • Wynter says

      May 20, 2015 at 8:25 pm

      Thanks, Natasha!

      Reply
  8. Leslie says

    May 21, 2015 at 9:56 am

    You made a brave decision both in giving birth to and giving up your baby and then by sharing the story with others.

    Reply
    • Wynter says

      May 21, 2015 at 6:27 pm

      Thank you, Leslie!

      Reply
  9. Emily says

    May 22, 2015 at 11:02 am

    Beautifully written. I cannot imagine the emotions behind this. You gave your son the greatest gift, by giving him life!!

    What a sweet picture.

    Reply
    • Wynter says

      May 24, 2015 at 4:33 pm

      Thanks, Emily!

      Reply

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